You spread happiness for all the years when you were here on this mortal land.
Now it is God’s turn to give you all the happiness in return as you go holding his hand.
On the sands of time, you have left your footprints with glory.
Everyone will know your name and shall recall your story.RIP  rk laxman

wandering wonders!!! i think therefore I am...

Sometimes I wonder why? I wonder why we say everything happens for the best..i wonder why the bloodshed...i wonder why some who should live leave ? I wonder why the heart bleeds ..i wonder why the cruelty? I wonder why the unfairness..i wonder and i reply...there's no method to his madness!!!
We just be brave and trudge along to hopefully a better tomorrow?? I wonder!

A friend replied:

I wonder too.. wise men say it's to do with cause and effect of past lives...but in the present we are ignorant and don't understand it..so best is to be good ...do good and make the present beautiful..future will take care of itself..Take away is if everyone takes the responsibilty of being good..the world can get transformed and be a better place to live in...if the world doesn't. .atleast we should do our bit.what say Aps??These questions will never have answers... we just need a major paradigm shift..in our thoughts words and actions.

Kavita well said, i tell her, but...the sad part is we keep looking for answers...who's to tell what the right direction is.God is there everywhere...so which direction? We be good ....we always grant others...we add to our good deeds...we do our bit....but to what end? I wonder!!!! Who makes the shift kavita?.... Aimlessly our soldiers die ...and we sit cozy...thankless humans all...what's the good in that i wonder? Agreed no answers but why, i wonder

My Passion...My profession..My life....I think!!!!

Life has moved  in the fast lane....just as its got strong wind and direction....and I think...I think where,how ,what,when???
Therefore I reach a decision..conclusively bringing to one point ..work!
Work kept me busy and spinning;the systems change and people move on...we stay around and we shoulder the work.Its not my bread and butter its my passion.Always dreamed of being a teacher ...a teacher with a difference .Achieved this dream with ease as if it was my destiny .Been in the field for twenty years and haven't looked back since.Always wanted to connect with my bachas ...away from the structured way of life we were woven into.Am happy..... Am searching.... Am Learning... Am looking.... I will surge..i will emerge .... I will not give up. For I think,therefore I am!

 Ban jaane de woh phool jo tere baag kee shaan badha de.Kyun hota hai aksar yeh jeevan mein mere saath. . . Jab hoon tanhaa nahin de paata apna haath . . na koi hota sahara na koi puchta dobara.
Joojh joojh kar jab thak jaati hoon kissi ke saath ko taras jaati hoon . . Ghar aur dil ka kona soona aur khaali paati hoon. Kab hogi yeh tanhayee khatam? Kab milega mujhe mera punar janam. . .
Ya phir Milegi is jeevan raah mein tanhaiyaan.. badhaien .koi to mujhe bataade..
 Kyun hota hai aksar yeh jeevan mein mere saath. . . Jab hoon tanhaa nahin de paata apna haath . . na koi hota sahara na koi puchta dobara.

Joojh joojh kar jab thak jaati hoon kissi ke saath ko taras jaati hoon . . Ghar aur dil ka kona soona aur khaali paati hoon. Kab hogi yeh tanhayee khatam? Kab milega mujhe chain kab aayega sukoon....

Time stood still
.....she was waiting for me to say something... The toughest words in my life..words that just wouldn't get uttered. But my baby was waiting and i had to say it... Do this for her. For my Angel.i had to tell her to go.... To move on to her happy place.could there be a happier place for her than ours? Could she be happy anywhere else, Ever???
But i had to ...so I did .I had my Angel breathe her last in my arms i told her to go .go my bacha go to your happy place.....
Two years and millions of tears later now I have mustered courage to write to talk and open my wounds.. To say I miss her I love You Angel Paenjal like I love aanuu....You will always remain my baby .And
Now that I have given myself the freedom to think back on those two years , I also think what did I do so wrong to loose her thus!

She came to us as my daughter's third birthday gift from her maternal aunt.We were ecstatic about the bundle of joy we had .She blessed us for the next four and a half blissful years and took away all pain and sorrow and went her way after much suffering.
I wonder why such selfless acts are met with so much pain.I wonder why her going was necessary? I wonder what was the purpose of her short life ?was it to make us experience the joy she brought with her? Was it the lesson of life we had to learn from her? Am still searching and wondering.maybe someday like her ,i too can be an inspirational end or maybe she taught me to live in an inspired way......

To A dear friend

 When we first talked to each other I knew we would always be friends. Our friendship has kept on growing And I'll be here for you to the end. You listen when I have a problem And help dry the tears from my face. You take away my sorrow And put happiness in its place. We can't forget the fun we've had Laughing 'til our faces turn blue. Talking of things only we find funny People think we're insane-If they only knew! I guess this is my way of saying thanks For catching me when I fall......

mujhe jeene do

Soch  rahi thee raat ke andhare mein , dil ke akele mein .... Kya batora is safar mein, kya payaa kya khoya aaj is dagar pe?

Chahaa nahin kabhi koi haseen sapna, chahaa nahin koi kabhi bane apna.chahaa bas sukh dena,na kuckh maangna na kuch lena.

Kehete hai khuda hai ..kehte hain sabke liye khudha hai...kehte hai sabka apna khuda hai.... Hai toh kyun nahin jaanata kya hai meri nanhee khushiyaan ? Kyun ban kar reh jaati hai woh har dum siskiyaan???

Kab akhir kab main jee paoongee,dare bina sahmein bina main reh paoongee.Har ek hansi ka kub tuk doongi hisaab? Kab tuk milegi khushi mujhe odhe gum ka naqaab?

Kahin aisa na ho main thuk jaoon? Haar ke kahin main ruk jaaoon!     Mujhe jeena hai; suna khuda tumne ???? Mujhe jeene do ,haansee ke aakhir kuch toh pal batorne do ....kuch toh sukh sametne do..kuch toh pyaar paane do. Mujhe jeena hai bas MUJJHE jeene do!!!!!